Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Jay Z says: heyya
Beyonce says: hmm
Beyonce says: do ure parents know u have a blog?
Jay Z says: no
Jay Z says: gila ke ape
Jay Z says: haha
Beyonce says: well i think my dad jes read mine!
Beyonce says: cos of stpid firefox
Beyonce says: i baru balik
Beyonce says: then he was usin d laptop wit another tab open
Beyonce says: but then now i sit here i saw ader lagi satu tab my blog
Beyonce says: n its on d post called Fashion Flirt yg memang I tak bukak pon
Beyonce says: .........
Beyonce says: mesti dia heart attack
Beyonce says: esp wit d first post dat appears
Beyonce says: yg grotesque echoes tu
Beyonce says: m feelin awkward laaaaaaaaaaaaa
Beyonce says: shit
Jay Z : damnnn
Beyonce says: hrm
Beyonce says: i click next
Beyonce says: pastu ader google search
Beyonce says: they have searched my name
Beyonce says: ...
Beyonce says: n my bro too
Jay Z says: wff.
Beyonce says: wtf kan?
Jay Z says: DAMNNNNNNNN
Jay Z says: ure doomed
Jay Z says: tp bukan ape sgt pons
Beyonce says: its says 'Beyonce' facebook
Jay Z says: kan?
Jay Z says: HAHAHA
Beyonce says: so takperla
Beyonce says: i dont tink they read anything much
Beyonce says: jes d fahion flirt post
Beyonce says: unless bukak browser lain
Beyonce says: they think so smart or what
Beyonce says: this IT stuff all
Jay Z says: fashion flirt pon asal?
Jay Z says: bukan u buat salah pon
Jay Z says: kannnnnnnn
Beyonce says: nola
Beyonce says: i jes feel like di spy on
Beyonce says: kalo my bro tau mesti dia lagi mengamuk
Beyonce says: dia teenager lagi
Beyonce says: well my mom doesnt know abt it
Beyonce says: i tanyer dia
Beyonce says: dia suruh ask my dad why
Jay Z says: DAMN.
Jay Z says: CITE LAAA
Beyonce says: he said 'im just looking thru'
Jay Z says: what happened?
Jay Z says: owh .
Beyonce says: im reporting to u as it is happening
Beyonce says: like sooooooo omg
Beyonce says: btw.... its not exactly wrong la...cos d www is public la kan
Jay Z says: AHHAHA
Sunday, December 28, 2008
You reach across to the glove compartment
I know it's no accident
Your hands brush against my thighs
I look at you, and wonder why
I close my eyes and take a deep breath
I feel empty, I feel full
We step out of the car now
We walk 10 feet a part
I look up at the sky
Dark clouds thirstyly swallow the magenta
I feel like I want to hold you
Around you I am safe
I imagine the warmth of your body against mine
The magenta will mourn the dark clouds
You try to keep close about 8 feet now
Im walking infront of you
I stop and look at you
Our eyes linger
You know I'm saying 'no'
I look away and keep moving
We reach a grotesque building of somesort
The air is thick and grey
You reach out to hold my hands to keep me safe
I pull my hands away
Im crying now, I keep walking
Drawn into the mouth of that grotesque thing.
I hear it calling to me.
Im inside now.
So many doors.
I turn around, left and right
All I hear is silence
All I see is walls and doors
No light, well just enough to see
I feel someone present with me
Who is it?
I look around frantically
Maybe its just the echo of my thoughts
My ears don't resonate my fast hearbeat
My throat doesn't get tighter
This horrific place feels like home
It's so familiar that I anticipate an occurance
Where is it coming from?
That thing that is making my heartbeat faster
That thing that is making it hard to swallow
I want it to show itself
In my head now are memories
Memories of you
Memories of all of them
I truly do love you, all of you
Not a heart I meant to shred
But still I want to see this
This thing that dwells in such grotesque a place
This thing that clutches my heart
This thing that thickens my saliva
This thing that I can't see with my eyes
But feel with every inch upto the end of my hairs
It gets intense now
Heart pounds faster
I feel as though I might faint
I clutch at my chest and
And I feel something peering at me
Frozen. I turn around
It is hideous
I want to be sick on its repulsiveness
I grow pale
That monster and me are eye to eye now
His green mishapen body perched upon a broken roman like pillar
He is not very big at all
About 3 feet.
He peers into my thoughts with his red eyes
His razor sharp shark like teeth on display
Sadistic is his grin that beckons me toward him
I speak to this creature
Trying to be as confident as I can
As much as it repulses me I can't deny the sense of familiarity
It has a man's voice but very loud
Every word that comes out of its mouth drains me more
It still smiles at me
Why am I talking to this feindish thing?
I turn to walk away
At the side of my eye I see the green thing go
'Go ego. Leave me. Never come back'
I'm set free!
Blood rushes back to my face and limbs
Till the tips of my hair
Just as my lips curl into a smile
Air is sucked out of me
Eyes wide open
One of the doors swing open
I run towards it
There is a body
A body on the floor
I'm trembling all over
'No its not him. It can't be. Please god. No'
I recite this as I get nearer.
Alas! My deepest fear lies before my very eyes
You lie bare and lifeless before me
Poisoned by a monster
I kneel before you my forbidden lover
As you lie there just as you were when we first met
13 years ago
Only now you lay lifeless
Lifeless and green
Greened by the monster
The Egoistic monster that kneels before you
Monday, December 22, 2008
Well the shoot was pretty neat. Loads n loads of outfits that we actually stopped counting after outfit number 4 or 5 or so.
The place where all this took place was at The Eagle Ranch Resort. We left Berjaya Times Square at about 8.45pm the night before. As we entered PD I thought we had already reached, but to my surprise it was a long way more inside PD.
You would expect that we were greated by something 'Western' like cow boy-ish but Noooooooooooo. There were karaokers! (if thats a word) There were 2 different karaoke groups going on at the same time. Both that would make Simon Cowell stare with his eyes wide open in disbelief(yeah that horrified face he does when some people come to the auditions thinking they can actually sing). Oh that's not the best part of it, the song was this Malay song Gadis Melayu or something like that "siapa bilang gadis melayu tak menawan, tak meranik hati..." (well he did add a "yeeeeeeeeeeehaaaaaaaaaa" at the end, I would have to give him some credit for that!)
Ok after checking in we drove over to where we were to stay. The Bandwagon. It looked amazing n huge from the outside. We were all excited but then....we soon realised that it houses 4 rooms! We went in and it was really puny. Yong the designer and the one who was incharge of the shoot then asked us if we were ok with it. We were like ..."yea ok" but that's just cos we were being nice.
His other 2 colleague were quick to say "No its not!" and saved the day. Hehe. So the guys got another room. We freshend up and headed for dinner at about 11 ish. We were really famished and worn out that when Yong introduced us all I don't think everyone got everyones name 100%. Well at first I thought maybe its just me...but when I went to the room and asked the girls they didn't get all the names either!
I tried quite hard to sleep that night and when I finally did it was time to wake up already. I was first awakened by my alarm which I purposely set earlier so I could snooze it, but was rudely awakened by some strange alarm that was a strange lady's voice singing a strange song about how she misplaced something.... I swear it was created to annoy you out of sleep. But I dont like to be annoyed out of sleep. So i tried to close my eyes n get a few winks n get up. But no...that woman didn't stop singing! And the worst part is we all seemed to be waiting for each other to wake up first. Finally I was the first to get out of bed.
Since I was the first to get ready I was the first to shoot. After that Aimee joined me. Then Kit. Then we saw the white horse we were to shoot with. At first we were fascinated, then disgusted. Why? It was a male horse, need I say more? I dunno I'm not sexist and I love animals, but I just find male animals obscene... put it away stallion! Thank god that that 'thing' dissapeared in time for the shoot. Dah la i berdiri belakang! eeks!It seemed like it was gona rain and we had what seemed like truck load of outfits to shoot. We actually considered sticking some chilli upright. Its said that that would stop it from raining, I read somewhere that during weddings people actually do that. But maybe a Bomoh would have been a better bet =p
Thanks to the unpredictable weather the shoot progressed faster and faster. Once we were done in the resort we moved on to the sea side. There we panjat-panjat pokok (climb climb trees) and also got bitten by some creature in the sea. I called them sea mosquitoes simply cos that's what I think they are called. heh =p After that it was a wrap just as the sun set! It was perfect timing. When we got back to the car though we discovered that some creep had thrown to girls' slippers into the sea! How evil right? Yong then was the super hero who saved the damsels or rather thier slippers. He walked into the water at high tide, it came up as far as his waist. Kinda scary thing to do for a slipper. Kit was standing at the side shouting "don't". But hero didn't listen and was back with the slippers.
We then ended the trip with a nice seafood dinner and headed back to kl. We stopped by at Syomir's house cos yours truly really really was paralyzed with the need to go wee wee. What can I say his apartment was so gorgeous. Kinda like watching MTV Cribs. Very tasteful! And he also had these 2 fluffy siamese cats that were soooooo OTT adorable. I wana go visit again and take pics! he he
The campaign should be out spring/summer next year. Can't wait =)
Here is my post for Tongue in Chic Mag. Sama tapi sumpah tak serupa =)
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Im still fiddling with the thought though...how can one be uninspired when there is so many things going on around her? Maybe sometimes you just need to force youself? If anyone knows please tell me.
Oh by the way the spread in New Tide is out. This is one of the pics....I nicked this off my friend Shirley's Facebook. Yeah Shirley is d one with d sexay lips.... (and also d one that can look like Cris Yong sometimes). Actually this is a spread page...there are another models on the other side..but she just scanned d side she is in..hehe.
I am also in another 2 pages of the mag. One is another group picture which has us all dressed like in a costume party (and with me holding a whip again!). Fukuoka is a sailor! KS is playing with an apple(?), Shirley is a sexay showgirl and there is a Chipndale dancer, Mistress of d house and Kinky maid. Can't picture it? Go get d magazine already! In d second pic....Im like..er..Beyonce-ish...don't wana explain anymore. Pegi beli!
Here is the link to the interview
Here is Aizat's page
I will also be contributing a post for TIC related to Mifa! That should be out soon too. Till then, I will try to keep my spirits up and hopefully be inspired to write like a God. heh.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Last Day at Mifa - with Aizat Aidid - Lego dress n shoes by Winson Tan
Friday, November 21, 2008
little eggs: I've recently shot a fashion spread for Marie Claire Jan issue and I have a Billboard shoot that should be up next year. I hope everything goes fine...you see sometimes/ most of the times you shouldn't count your chickens before the eggs hatch.
I am a strong believer in that. I have learned the hard way that not all eggs hatch and some that do may well be rotten! That said...don't even count it at its cracking stage or even after it cracked! Count it when the little fella inside can walk around a bit and you know that he is alive for sure. Yeah that's when you should count your chickens.
so here are some eggs for you other than those little eggs at the top of this post.
1stDec - New Tide Magazine. Just Buy It!
5thDec - I may very well be coming down to Queensbay mall again on the. I haven't any other information to share with you as of yet but if you are around the corner do stop by and say hi ~_~ Ive heard that my show is going to be at 8pm.
Lastly I gave an Interview to Tounge in Chic, but I don't know when that Egg is hatching either =p
All this talk about eggs got me thinking about this yummy chocolate egg called Cadbury's Cream Egg. I had this first when I was a little child in England. I loved/love it so much! I used to bite uf the top part of the egg and lick the cream all out! As i remember it was one of the sickest sweetest loveliest thing I've ever eaten. I craved it so much when i came back...and once I managed to find it in a Jusco in Melaka/Ayer Keroh when I was doing my Pre-U in MMU. But that was like 7 years ago! (did I just give out my age?) That was the last I saw of this evil little yummy thing!
I didn't intend to write about you my dear Cadbury's Cream Egg, but as I was saying all this talk about eggs brought back memories and I Googled you up cos Im so upset why I can't find you anymore =( Apparently "Cadbury Creme Egg is available from New Year's Day to Easter Day. Creme Egg lovers work out how to eat theirs in the UK, USA, Canada, Australia and New Zealand." So that means I can't find you here? Well I really do hope if someone does find this yummy fake-o eggy treat, they remember me and my yearning to be reunited with the taste of this evil chocolate treat. Hey bring me one (or a tonne) and yourself one and we'll have some over coffee(or more chocolate).
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
The schedule is as above and i have higlighted the shows I'm walking for in red. I would like to invite you all to come! Datangla beramai - ramai! Who knows...this may even be my last Mif-w...... so datangla!
"Yea ok... I wana support you Jay/Abszie... but how do I get the tickets?" Well that's easy... Mif-w is open to everybody but you need to RSVP first! So it works on first come first serve basis. Just send an email to email@example.com.
For more information visit http://www.m-ifw.com or call +603 2143 3098 or e-mail firstname.lastname@example.org.
So i have all the info you need..what are you waitng for? Oh n its just 7 days away! Cepat cepat!
PS. Don't forget your Camera =) Seeee you there
Monday, October 13, 2008
Shirley, Cris Yong (the stylist), Phierence, Jaishana
Glam in the Pigeon Hole Dressing Room - 1U
Photography by Me ~_~
Me, Caught by Me, Framed by Me
Photography by Me ~_~
Me and my sanity
Where is your pants gurl?? Part 2
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Finally these are the pictures from Talent magazine. I really like them.
Well, don't really have much to say so this time the pictures will do the talking.
I like this one!
Ans this one!And this one!
Monday, September 8, 2008
On the way back from casting yesterday (08/09/08) me and my friend were talking about how hard it is to get jobs in
All the time in the world meaning still young and you need lotsa money because you will be constantly going for castings and such to get recognized and get your name out there. Heck sometimes even do free shoots or shows merely in hope to get noticed! If you have all time in the world (still young) it would be ideal to start your modeling career. You can do it while you study or even while having a part time job. Of course you could still do that when you are older.. but when you are older you responsibilities change.
If you are 18 and have a part time job while modeling, its kewl cos you can pretty much find out if you are marketable before you hit your mid 20’s where you are expected to be in a more stable position. Even if your folks are not pushing you towards something more stable that pays EPF (because we don’t have any welfare in Malaysia – so without the forced savings and employers contribution you wont have any money to fall back on when you are old) I’m pretty sure deep down inside you would compare yourself to someone younger especially if they are doing better then you.
How long can you model anyway? Even as a model you should have the mind of an entrepreneur cos one day you’re Hot and the next day you’re Not….then you Rott(hopefully not heh)
Now we come back to where we started. Modeling in
Caucasian models … well I guess
‘The girl thinks this guy is hot but he doesn’t seem to even notice her. She is very upset so she starts using this whitening cream. And suddenly he notices her for now she is fair n beautiful’ – Dark = Ugly?
‘This girl whines to her mom that every one at school are calling her names like Black Face. So her mom gives her this magic cream and she looks so pretty now cos she is fair’ – Being Dark = Must be Ashamed? Disrespected?
So as me and my friend nod with agreement and shake our heads in disappointment a thought pops up between us.
He says “What about brown models like us? We will neva get a chance”
I say “ We should come up with our own agency then”
He says “Yea only for brown models”
I say “Yea! We can call in Brown Models – Where Brown is the New White!” “Then when we have events n stuff we can serve Brownies and Chocolate Milk Shakes!”
( I picture myself sitting at the directors desk as a client walks in) “Hi welcome to Brown Models. Care for a Brownie?” I say as my hand gestures him toward a tray full of freshly baked brownies.
The only two models from Brown Models agency